...Destination ~ Destiny...

Monday, August 29, 2005

..Heart Of The Hunter..

today im goin to share with u a paragraph that i read from a novel.. i think it can reali be a good thing to ponder about..

An Extract from 'Heart of The Hunter' written by Deon Meyer:

" Do you know what is life? It is a process of disillusionment. It frees you from your illusions about people. You start out trusting everyone, you find your role models and strive to be like them and then you are disappointed by one after the other and it hurts, Van Heerden ( character in the story), it is a painful road to walk and i never understood why it must be so, but now i do. It is because every time the hope in you dies a little, with every disillusion, each disappointment in others becomes a disappointment in yourself. If others are weak, that weakness lies in you. It is like death, when you see others die you know it lies in wait for you. I am so tired of it, Van Heerden, i am so tired f being disillusioned, of seeing all these things on people and in myself, the weakness, the pain, the evil.

I am what i am. i can deny it, i can suppress it... and hide it, but not for ever. Life does as it will, it throws you around. Yesterday there was a moment i realised i was living again. for the first time in... a long time. That i was doing something meaningful. With satisfaction. That I was vibrating inside and outside, in time,in rhythm. And do you know my first reaction? To feel guilty.... I have had time to think, Van Heerden. I understand it better. I was not what i am that is wrong. It was what i use it for. Or let it be used for. That was my mistake. I allowed other people to decide. But no more. No More. "

Personally i felt that this 2 paragraphs say alot about a person perspective of life comparing himself from his past to his present actions. It is full of overwhelming emotions about how he felt after going through so much stuff in just a few days that disrupted his peace that he had managed for a year.. he lost the love of his life n Felt very depressed for he feels that indirect he caused her death if he hasnt accepted this request which he says that is a Debt that he has to repay - a man's debt; a debt of honour.. Such a simple yet complicated principle of life to one's thinkings and belief...

isnt it interesting!! i think i will continue to read the next book at hand.. hope that it will too be a nice story.. if any one of u like short stories i hav a website to recommend.. there are lots of stories available of different gene.. like crime, romance, fiction and etc..

** http://www.eastoftheweb.com/short-stories/indexframe.html **

*Nitez*

:D ♥; sally